my friend that i call my little sister is really annoying i try to be there or her because she dsnt hve a lot and she has what she calls a bad home life! she needs me to be a good influence for her and show her that the few little things in life that arent goood that happen are normal and she will get over and passed it! i kinda think she's a lil' fruity and all but i wldnt let that stop me from being her friend b/c she needas someone who wldnt turn their back on her because she has been through a lot. she's adopted and she thinks that thats a bad thing and that ppl dnt like her because of it and i try to tell her that there's nothing wrong with it because a lot of ppl hve been adopted and that one day she'll meet her birth mother!

me nd my boyfrined broke up....he really broke my heart but i now see something in someone else that i had never seen before and how i like someone but nevr really payed it much attention because i jus thought i was crushing but i guess i wasnt. i dnt like boys n e more bc ther r all the same! they all suck..i am now gonna focus on me and do what i hve to do rather than be boy crazy! im jus gonna focus on me and my schooling n e way because im gonna be going to college soon and i need to be prepared and get everything together right now!

my mom makes me mad sometime like wnen she acts like she cant trust me or whatevr! me nd my frind ashley s. were sitting in my friends car and she goes r u in there and i said yes with ashley and she's like who else? and im like terrell who u've met before and she was like well U get out of the car im like fine watevr! i think she wld be more happier if i jaust stayed in my room all day and night then she wldnt hve to be so mean!

this weekend im hopin to go dress shopping because i hvent picked n e thing out for prom and i dnt evn hve a date yet but i told my bestfriend that id tke her as my date b/c she's always there for me wen i need her and she can drive so it wrks out for the best and besides i dnt want to hve to babysit some boy who doesnt wanna dance n e wayz. id rather tke her b/c for one she can dance and will do it no matter what evn if she doesnt kno the ppl around her. nd she gets along great with everybody unless i dnt like'em!

one of my goals for this class is to bring my grade up and to push myself to do harder in this class. i also need to get my work done on time and be more respectful of others and others' work.
i would like to be able to create some amazing work that i haven't before and open my imagination more and open my creativeness more so that i can go farther in the creative world and and create more. these are my goals because i am a senior and i would like it when colleges look at my transcripts and see that i am a very creative person.
i want for colleges to see more of my creativity than anything because i express myself through all things creative.

8 MINUTES OF SCHOOL LEFT AND I JUST WANNA RUN IN THE HALLWAY AND DO CART-WHEELS AND GET ON THE BUS AND GO HOME! THE LAST FEW MINUTES OF WAITING FOR THE BELL TO RELEASE YOU FOR THE WEEKEND OR A BREAK IS HARD. ITS SO MUCH ANTICIPATION! I MEAN, JUST KNOWING THAT THE ONLY THING HOLDING YOU BACK FROM WALKING OUT THAT DOOR IS A FEW MINUTES AND A BELL IS, WELL, PRETTY STUPID!

2007! OMG!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED THAT THERE IS NOT LONG TO GO!!!!! I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MY ENTIRE LIFE! THE FEELING FOR BEING A SENIOR IS WONDERFUL! THERE IS NOTHING LIKE THE FEELING OF KNOWING THAT SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER FOR YOU AND BEING A SENIOR. WHEN THE DAY FINALLY COMES AND YOU BECOME A SENIOR YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MY EXCITMENT. ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AND YOU WALK IN SCHOOL AS A SENIOR IS WHEN IT REALLY HITS YOU. I MEAN YOU FEEL AS THOUGH YOU ON TOP OF THE WORLD BECAUSE YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS ARE COMPLETE AND THAT YOUR HARD IS FINALLY PAYING OFF! I KNOW THAT WHEN YOUR A JUNIOR YOUR STILL UPER-CLASSMA BUT AS A SENIOR ITS SO MUCH MORE DRAMATICALLY DIFFERENT!

today is friday and i have nothing planned for today but maybe tomorrow i may have some plans. i want to do something out of the ordinary and get out of the normal for atleast one day! nothing to dramatic!

wait change that i do have one thing for today! i am getting my eyebrows waxed and i am actually un-normaly excited! well thats all for this post i ahve nothing else in mind for that!

i want a motorcycle but my mom wont let me because she said over her dead body. i think since im so small and it would be kinda big. my aunt has on that has the color of reesee's on it and has the logo with the matching jacket and helmet and i think she is the inspiration for that! i figure, if she can have one...so can i! right?! ive been on one once but the pipe burnt my leg. my uncle took me when we went to mississippi for a family reunion a while ago! i was cool! some what of a rollercoaster but not as fun! speaking of rollercoasters, we're supposed to be going to cedarpoint and i am going to ride every rollercoaster like i always do because i love the rush...the only one i hvnt been on is the dragster but my sister wont let me!

after high school i plan to go to OCC for two years and then go to Maybe somewhere like Oakland University because i want to major in dance or acting because i am good in both areas but there is a lot more that i can learn from others. i think i am going major in dance and entreprenuership becausei would like to start my own dance company and open it in detroit to give the kids there something positive to do with their time so they wont have to deal with the violence or neglect!

My idol of all times is Ciara. I love her because the personality that she portrays on television is a very nice and conservative one! she seems down to Earth and calm. I wish i could say that she is but i dont know her so i cant. i love her songs and her dancing. she is my inspiration for my dancing because she shows that thee is more to dancing that shaking your butt and all the other dances that some would call "black people's dances". I would love to write oprah a letter ad explain to her that my number 2 dream is to meet ciara because she is my idol. my number 1 dream is to meet CHRIS BROWN who is an R&B artist, a singer perhaps, and he is realllly cute! he seems down to Earth as well! that would be a great comebo to have on oprah and to be on there on her favorites day so i my dreams would come true and i could win prizes!

i am in love. im so high from this feeling and i never wanna come down! its great to have some one who you can be yourself around and never be embarrased about anything. someone who knows you more than you know yourself. some one that you know feels the same way you do about you! he makes me feel special and its just great...my mom loves him but she just told me to be careful and to not get to caught up! i know i am too young to be talking like this and haveing such a big commitment but he is so great and we've known eachother for so long, 1 yr and 6 mnths, and we actually took the time to get to know eachother so we know the kind of person that the other one is! i really do see a future with him but as for right now being b/f and g/f is just good. i mean i love him and vice versa but i need to concetrate on school and my life and become more mature and build a life for myself in order and all that stuff that you have to do after high school. i dnt want to mess that up i want a futre for us but i have to make one for myslef before i do anything that will throw me off track!

my bestest friend is grounded and she is the only one i trust and cant talk about things that i need to talk about! she always there for me no matter what and i depend on her to be there at all times like i am for her. but this is really killin me! i get reaydy to call her and i pick up the phone and its like...oh i forgot! i tell her everything, she's like my walking and living diary. my mom loves her and so does my step dad but of course my niece doesnt like her, but thats natural, anyone thats not her she doesnt like. she so involved in her self that she doesnt need a b/f because its like she dates her self with all the mirror compliments and mirror kisses. its crazy! i went to look at prom dresses and this place that we went to was horrible..the dresses were from like the '60's i mean OMG! this place was so cramped, the women were so rude and all of their contents were bad. ecen the purses! ughhhh! and to thing some one some where made it and some one some where brought that dress and wore it!!! EWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

so i talked to my dad yesterday and of course he called right as i was in the middle of my b/f being at my house. he had just got there and my dad called, and that happened the last time he came over. its like my dad knows when im with a boy like a radar or something. and again my niece and i are at each others throats over a bunch of nothing. so i told her yesterday that since its always one thing after another every other week that maybe we should not talk anymore and she said ok, but i know that wont last.

well me and my momma seemed to have worked out our problems but things arent like they used to be, i mean she is tyring to get me to grow up and be mature and a better person but i rather her baby me because thats the one person i can count on to help me through my problems. i do have my step dad to help me through things and spoil me, which in fact he does very well, i can talk him into anything thats good! my dad hasnt been around alot in my life because he had another family to take care off but i wish he'd been there for the important things and been there to get to know mw and see what kind of person i've grown into! a dad is a special person in a girls life who cant be replaced but i barly know my dad or even anything he likes or doesnt like...not even the basic things! he really doesnt know me but whats worse is that h acts as if he has some type of authority in my life such as i cant date or what i can and cant do and all this other non-sense stuff. he'll tell me weather or not i can go and spend the night at a friends house and stuff but its like thats what i have a mom for. right?

life

so my life has been a little shakey for a while between my niece and i bitting each other's heads off and my boyfriend and i having a few problems but nothing too serious. i have noticed that guys are dingbats because they only want one thing from you and we all know what that is but at the same time they can be some of the coolest people around.
since i've had a b/f most of my guy friend don't like talkin' to me too much. i have come to the realization that guys only become your friend for one reason and again we all know what that is. and here, i thought that they liked me as a friend because i was cool and a good person but they were all like mountain lions. waiting to pounce when they find you at your weakest and lonliest.
my mom and i are growing closer but i have a huge problem with this whole growing up thing. i am 17 and have been under my moms wings since birth and now that i'm getting ready to graduate i am supposed to be all mature and grown and i dont like it. i have been spoiled and babied since i was born and now my mom expects me to drop that and become all womanly, i mean i can but for some reason i just don't want to grow up. i mean think about it, all our lives our parents tell us not to grow up too fast but then when we get older we're supposed to grow up and act our age. im not in suc a rush for this being a woman i have been a kid all my life why chage that, i really don't do chage well.
my boyfrined and i are doing good, which was expected since we both were eachothers bestststs friends for over a uyear and really got to know eachother before we hooked up. its been a month, 1 week and 5 days (and no i am not loco but i did just look it up) and we've had our ups and downs and i mean that kinda excits me, ive had real relationships before but i havnt been this out spoken about what i like and what i don't like and i am enjoying the comfortableness that i feel with him. he's great, he doesn't pressure me to do anything i don't want to like most guys and he's ginuinly a gentleman and my mom loves him.
this weekend me and my stepdad are going out prom dress shopping...cool! last weekend was cool though because i got this really, really big lion and i mean this thing is so big that i was gonna bring it to school but its too big for me to carry.
well thats enough for right now so later~~~

"sometimes when you win, you lose"

to me this quote means more than just winning games. this could mean anything from relationships to games. in relationships this could mean that when you think you have something good. you don't. when you think you have everything you could have possibly ever wanted or needed you don't.

sometimes people settle for just good or ok but this qute shows that to me. when people settle they lose because they're not gettin what they wanted. in my opinion i feel as though when i or anyone doesn't get what they want, need, or deserve then they lose. they're losing out on having they wishes and dreams come true and it is important to go out for those things and expierence them.

okay...so i know i am rambling on and on and on about what this quote means but to me it just means that winning isn't everything because losing can sometimes lead you to what you really deserve.

Duane

He is very tall

Also known as insane

Doesn't walk with a cane

He can play basketball

Duane

His middle names is Whayne

A good friend who always gives me his all

Also knwon as insane

He lives on Commerce Lane

When I need him, I give him a call

Duane

He doesn't have a lions' mane

When we hang out, we go to the mall

Also known as insane

if youe mess with me, he will cause major pain

We say hi when we see each other in the hall

Duane

Also known as insane

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today I am bored. i have nothing on my mind. i don't really feel like writing my memoir. there was nothing really interesting that happened today. i argued with a boy in my fifth hour and had an okay lunch.

yesterday this girl called me ot of my name and i snapped. i was an associate with her becaue in a way i guess she kinda intimidate me but i couldn't take it any longer. i had to stand up to her. i told her that she was to never talk to me like that or call me out of my name like that because it was disrespectful and that she didn't know me well enough to joke around with me in that manner. (not that joking around would make this situation okay but it would have been better).

i really, really hate when people underestimate me because i am so tiny. i feel that i can hold my own and i can fight my own battles and i don't like when people talk to me in any kind of way because they take my kindness for a weakness.

Today a boy, well...my friend, asked me if I was going to Winterfest, I told him that I was, he seemed to be really excited about me going an said "yes" with the arm motion....it made me feel special!!! Then he asked me if I wanted to go with him in a little more detail than I bare to give, and then we decided to go together!! So....I guess I could call that something interesting or maybe even a highlight of my day....Yea.....I think thats what I'll call it...a highlight! That made me completly happy to know that someone, at this school, had an interest. :) :) :) :) :)! I think I'll go and be happy now!!!!

This is me

I am pink

bright and happy

I am the wind as it blows me away

I am to my family as pooh bear is to me....a favorite

I am short as a carnation but big as a plate of macaroni and cheese,

short as a skirt in the summer but as tall as jeans in the winter

I am more loving than Valentine's Day but

can be as sad as the rain that relaxes me a night

I wish to be rich

but I am as spoiled as milk on a hot summer day

I am always cold as the winter

but as warm and sunny as the summer

I am 11:30 as I was born

but I am gone like the wind that blows me away.

My true colors test

My personality is like no other. I am a mix of everything. I am a loving caring person who can be mean. I enjoy the smallest things in life. i am free spirited and I love doing things on a whim because I believe that those are the most fun things ion life. I don't care what people think of me because I am who I am...and thats all that I can be. i don't feel the need to try and impress anyone.

Even though I am outgoing and I love to talk, I can be content and settled and quiet. I love to take long walks and be with my family. I can easily entertain myself so I can't completly say that i am all orange but all the qualities of orange are me.
I learn by doing, perform well in competition, love action, enjoy games, fun and excitement. I am impulsive and physical and most of all I LOVE BEING THE CENTER OF EVERYONES ATTENTION! I love haveing all eyes on me as long as its in a positive way. i love the feeling of people wanting to be around me because I am an honest, fun, person.

I am most positively an orange but I have other color qualities such as from gold I like everything to be structured and even. I am very organized when need be and responsible...I love fun as much as the next person but I don't want to danger anyone's life or myself, and I don't want to put my mommie in the position to worry about me, and I also respect rules and authority as long as thats is given back to me. I can not respect someone who doesn't respect me...adult or not!!. From green I took the qualities of curiosity and independability and new ideas spark that. From blue I am very verbal, cooperative, appreciate feedback, a little sensitive about rejection and conflicts to others, and I must know that eveyone loves me. I also love open and people-oreiented atmospheres.