life

so my life has been a little shakey for a while between my niece and i bitting each other's heads off and my boyfriend and i having a few problems but nothing too serious. i have noticed that guys are dingbats because they only want one thing from you and we all know what that is but at the same time they can be some of the coolest people around.
since i've had a b/f most of my guy friend don't like talkin' to me too much. i have come to the realization that guys only become your friend for one reason and again we all know what that is. and here, i thought that they liked me as a friend because i was cool and a good person but they were all like mountain lions. waiting to pounce when they find you at your weakest and lonliest.
my mom and i are growing closer but i have a huge problem with this whole growing up thing. i am 17 and have been under my moms wings since birth and now that i'm getting ready to graduate i am supposed to be all mature and grown and i dont like it. i have been spoiled and babied since i was born and now my mom expects me to drop that and become all womanly, i mean i can but for some reason i just don't want to grow up. i mean think about it, all our lives our parents tell us not to grow up too fast but then when we get older we're supposed to grow up and act our age. im not in suc a rush for this being a woman i have been a kid all my life why chage that, i really don't do chage well.
my boyfrined and i are doing good, which was expected since we both were eachothers bestststs friends for over a uyear and really got to know eachother before we hooked up. its been a month, 1 week and 5 days (and no i am not loco but i did just look it up) and we've had our ups and downs and i mean that kinda excits me, ive had real relationships before but i havnt been this out spoken about what i like and what i don't like and i am enjoying the comfortableness that i feel with him. he's great, he doesn't pressure me to do anything i don't want to like most guys and he's ginuinly a gentleman and my mom loves him.
this weekend me and my stepdad are going out prom dress shopping...cool! last weekend was cool though because i got this really, really big lion and i mean this thing is so big that i was gonna bring it to school but its too big for me to carry.
well thats enough for right now so later~~~